I have played over in my mind what I would say to you so many times. At first, all I wanted to do is scream at you until I felt better. I just hated you so much that I wanted you to hear all of the hurtful things I had to say. You were a huge part of all of the pain I was feeling at the time. I was miserable, and misery loves company, therefore I wanted you to feel miserable too. I knew none of those things would make me feel better, in the long run, they would just make me feel bad about myself.
Now that I have had time to think about it all and reflect on what happened, what I want to say to you is much different than what I would have said before.
I hope that he brings you the overflowing amount of happiness, that you feel happier than you have ever felt before and thank God for bringing him into your life. Waking up to the long messages of him expressing how much he cares for you will bring such a fullness to your heart that nothing could possibly bring you down.
I hope that you both confide your deepest thoughts to each other while laying together in the dark. You find a complete sense of comfort telling him anything and everything because in your heart you know that he cares about what you have to say.
I hope as you drift to sleep with him holding you in his arms, you rest easy knowing you are sleeping next to such a perfect person.
I hope that he gives you an all-consuming love that you cannot live without.
I hope that when he tells you that he loves you, you feel it in your bones and it almost even brings tears to your eyes because you feel so complete. You can feel his love for you radiate when he looks at you and smiles.
I hope that he truly is the love of your life, from the bottom of my heart.
I hope that just the smell of his cologne gives you butterflies and floods your heart with happiness. Snuggling up in his favorite shirt will make you feel safe and sound.
I hope you fall in love with not only him, but also with his family. They make you feel like you are a member of their family and love you like their own.
I hope that the love of him and his family bring you the love and happiness you have been waiting your whole life for.
I hope that when he begins to change, you ignore it and think that he’s just having a bad day. When he ignores you, that you feel that pit in your stomach that refuses to go away until you hear from him.
I hope that when he lies to you and says his phone died, that you choose to believe him even though you know something seems wrong.
I hope that when you ask him why he has been acting differently, that he shuts you out and refuses to be honest with you. He will lash out at you for trying to get to the bottom of his strange behavior.
I hope that when you ask him why he is texting, Snapchatting, and calling other girls, that he calls you crazy and controlling.
I hope that when he stops asking to hang out with you, starts canceling plans, and likes other girls posts on social media, you feel forgotten. When you try your hardest to make things go back to how they were, that he will push you away and treat you like a burden rather than a pleasure.
I hope that when you plead with him to be there for you, that he absent.
I hope that when you discover that he is cheating on you, that it feels like your heart is physically breaking into pieces. When you see the new girl he chose over you, that you feel completely betrayed.
I hope that you cry until your eyes swell and your head aches.
I hope that he blames the fall of your relationship on you and makes you feel like it is your fault he cheated on you. When you lay in your bed at night you try to understand why you were not good enough for him.
I hope that you have to watch him make this girl feel everything for him that you once felt.
I hope you feel all of these things because then you will understand how I feel. I do not want to scream at you, embarrass you, or hurt you. I want you to fall in love with him the way I did so that you can feel the pain that I did when you took him.
I hope that you feel all of these things so that you will never make the same mistake again, so that you will never hurt another girl like this again.