What do you do when your heart gets broken... When it gets torn in little pieces by the one person who you thought would have your back till the very end? What happens next?

You thought he was going to be the one you marry. You talked about your future together all the time and even planned it out; the wedding colors, future baby names, where you wanted to live, and what type of house you wanted to live in. How do all these things changed within seconds?

How can you love someone so much one day and the next break their heart in half the next? How can you live with yourself after doing that to someone that you kissed goodbye just a few short hours earlier. How can you break their heart and not even care about it?

I'll never understand how to break someones heart.

They are giving you the most precious part of themselves, trusting you with it, just hoping you aren't like that rest that torn this beautiful part of this beautiful person apart. How can you live with yourself knowing you did them wrong?

But then, how can you hope they forgive you after hurting them for so long. Mistake after mistake, you just say you're sorry expecting them to forgive you every time it happens. From the fights to every girl's worst nightmare in a relationship. How can you hurt someone so precious?

How can you look them in the eyes and tell them you love them and still want them knowing what you did. How can you keep doing this to her? You need to fix your act or let her go to someone who will take care of her.

You knew her past, you knew how hurt she had been, yet you broke her anyway. You promised you wouldn't be like the rest of the a**holes who hurt her. Yet, you did the very same thing.

Please tell me how you can live with yourself now?

Tell me how you will feel each night knowing she isn't by your side anymore, or even looking around the room and not seeing her stuff everywhere anymore. Tell me how you feel knowing she won't be a text away when something happens; good news or bad. Tell me how you hurt this girl so much that was your best friend.

You both put so much effort into this relationship, and you let her down. Just please tell me how you will live with yourself now?