One of the hardest things to do is find a way to move on without closure. It’s picking yourself up without ever understanding why everything became a mess in the first place.
It’s drowning in sorrows, soaking up all the pain and watching your self-worth dwindle away while you wait for the apology that is never going to come.
The thing is, sometimes you really do deserve an apology.
A person’s inability to acknowledge how they mistreated you is not a reflection of you as a person. He spun you in circles, drowned your heart in confusion and left you dizzy and broken.
But even though you deserve for him to be sorry, and you deserve for him to say it, you absolutely do not need it.
Somewhere along the way, someone convinced you that the only way to have closure was to have one last, heartfelt conversation with him. You just want some explanation as to why he was tearing you apart.
But let me ask you this, does that really make it better?
Is being destroyed in person better than through a text? Is that last conversation going to mend all the broken pieces you’re left with in the end?
He was unfair. He was wrong. He should be sorry.
But it’s OK if he's not.
Just because you deserve better, doesn’t mean what you once had didn’t mean something. Things that broke along the way do not remove your value, nor what that man once meant to you.
You’ve allowed this to define you and strip you of your self-worth. You’ve allowed yourself to believe that you cannot move forward without receiving some sort of validation for what happened.
Well here is your validation:
YOU DO NOT NEED HIS APOLOGY.
You don’t need him to say he’s sorry. You don’t need him to miss you. You don’t need him to regret the situation.
You are more than enough.
You are valid in your feelings and your frustration. You are valid in your want for closure and for a genuine apology.
I am sorry it has come to this. I am sorry you are heartbroken.
But as far as moving on, you’ve got this.
You are OK, and even if you’re not, it’s OK to not be OK. Closure is just accepting that a situation is over and finding a way to move on.
Accept that you deserve an apology. That’s all you really need. You deserve it. You are worth it. You are absolutely amazing on your own.
So pick yourself up, and fly.
You’ve got this.