I wish I could feel angry when I thought of you,
and I wish I didn’t pity you so fucking bad.
I wish that night when I looked into your eyes and felt safe, that I could erase that feeling from my head.
I wish you weren't such a big part of my soul,
and that you didn’t have such a strong hold on me.
Every time I hear that song, I just hear it the way you used to sing it to me.
I wish I could feel nothing like I did before I met you,
This is why love is so dangerous, is it alters our feelings, values, and morals, and makes us into someone we never thought we’d be.
For better for worse they say, but you brought out the fucking worst in me every god damn day.
Anytime I hear a song by Tom Waits, I think of you,
Every time I get in the car, I remember who taught me how to drive
Every time I light a cigarette, I remembered that you switched to smoking blacks so we could always share a pack.
Whenever I see a candle lit in the dark, I remember the night you made me dinner when I worked late,
Or you leaving money in my car in case I wanted to get a coffee on the way home
I remember so many fond memories of us, and I wish I could just forget
I remember laying in bed with you and feeling optimal comfort,
All the mornings I was late for work because you would snooze my alarm cause you didn’t want me to go,
I wish I didn’t feel these things, cause they feel so long gone.
Now you're off doing these things for some other girl, and it’s all my fault
Some days I wish I could have you back, but I know it would be wrong
You’re not my forever, and I won’t be your last, I just wish you would hold me for one more night and then maybe I can forget the past.