I Hate The Way I Miss You

I Hate The Way I Miss You

The nights you can't catch a break
Gina
Gina
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I wish I could feel angry when I thought of you,

and I wish I didn’t pity you so fucking bad.

I wish that night when I looked into your eyes and felt safe, that I could erase that feeling from my head.

I wish you weren't such a big part of my soul,

and that you didn’t have such a strong hold on me.

Every time I hear that song, I just hear it the way you used to sing it to me.

I wish I could feel nothing like I did before I met you,

This is why love is so dangerous, is it alters our feelings, values, and morals, and makes us into someone we never thought we’d be.

For better for worse they say, but you brought out the fucking worst in me every god damn day.

Anytime I hear a song by Tom Waits, I think of you,

Every time I get in the car, I remember who taught me how to drive

Every time I light a cigarette, I remembered that you switched to smoking blacks so we could always share a pack.

Whenever I see a candle lit in the dark, I remember the night you made me dinner when I worked late,

Or you leaving money in my car in case I wanted to get a coffee on the way home

I remember so many fond memories of us, and I wish I could just forget

I remember laying in bed with you and feeling optimal comfort,

All the mornings I was late for work because you would snooze my alarm cause you didn’t want me to go,

I wish I didn’t feel these things, cause they feel so long gone.

Now you're off doing these things for some other girl, and it’s all my fault

Some days I wish I could have you back, but I know it would be wrong

You’re not my forever, and I won’t be your last, I just wish you would hold me for one more night and then maybe I can forget the past.

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Gina
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To The Ex Who Won’t Move On, It’s Time To Let Go

Moving on is hard, but it’s time for you to realize I’m gone.

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It's been a year. It's been 365 days since I left you. I was ready for a change. Our relationship was unhealthy and very toxic. We argued constantly. You were very controlling, and it was time to end it. You knew you were the issue in the relationship and you knew what needed to be fixed.

You couldn't change.

After figuring out I couldn't live the rest of my life unhappy, I left. It was hard no doubt. We had good memories, but the bad outweighed the good. You never appreciated me. You weren't loyal to me and I never understand why. You always made me feel as if I was never enough.

I finally left you. You couldn't accept the fact that I was done. I told you I discovered my self-worth and you were angry. You didn't want to see me go. You called and texted me for weeks.

I ignored you.

You were so mad because I was finally done. You had convinced yourself that I would come back but little did you know, I wouldn't. You called and texted daily. You even called my job. You didn't understand. I could no longer listen to ongoing insults and constant accusations. I had enough of it.

When I didn't respond to your calls and texts, you began using text apps and calling me from restricted. You wouldn't stop. When you found out I moved on, it got worse. I begged you to stop and you wouldn't. I finally stopped responding. You still continue to try to contact me.

I need you to move on. I want to put everything behind us. I want you to go out and find someone to make you happy. I need you to realize you and I are over. I want you to move on like I did. I am happy now and I don't need you ruining that. To my ex who is struggling to move on, it's time to let go and move on.

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11 Sneaky Signs Your Relationship Is Headed For A Breakup

Sometimes it just comes out of nowhere.

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When you think of a breakup, you may think of weeks of screaming at each other, cheating, lying, and pretty much every other obvious sign you aren't meant for each other.

Sometimes, these signs aren't even there. There may be underlying signs that have been there for a while until it all bubbles up and, BOOM, the breakup happens.

Here are 11 subtle signs your relationship is headed for a breakup:

1. When your S.O.'s name pops up on your phone you feel like groaning.

Throughout your relationship, you would get butterflies when your S.O's name came on your phone. You would be dying to talk to them and tell them all about your day. If it feels like a chore, it might be time to revaluate the relationship.

2. If you live together, you find yourself hoping they aren't home when you get there.

Coming home to your S.O. at the end of every day should be rewarding and exciting. You need to be comfortable in your own living space.

3. You stop wanting to spend time together.

You don't need to spend every waking moment together, but when it seems more like more of a task to take time out of your day that isn't okay.

4. FaceTimes and phone calls become nonexistent.

And if they are existent, the love isn't there and they seem distracted.

5. When you are hanging out, you are checking the time and figuring out when you should leave.

Before, time would fly by and you would be wishing you had more time.

6. Going out on a date seems like a hassle more than an actual treat.

Date nights are rare in busy lives, but when planning them isn't exciting anymore it usually isn't a good sign.

7. When you look into the future you don't see them in it.

You had all your kids names picked out and now you can't even see the relationship getting through the next month.

8. The time between talking to each other increases.

You find yourself forgetting that you haven't talked in a while. And it doesn't necessarily bother you.

9. They irritate you more.

Just their face could bring out anger you didn't know you had.

10. The quirks you once found endearing are now annoying.

Remember the way he'd easily fall asleep in your arms and how it made you feel all gooey inside? Yeah, now it's like he's never awake when you're around.

11. When they stop doing the little things that once put a smile on your face.

No more random "you're beautiful" comments or spontaneous trips to your favorite places in town.

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