Hello, fancy seeing you here.
How are you? It’s been awhile since we’ve talked to each other. How long has it been? Almost a year? Not to sound sappy but I really do miss you. We were already two weeks into the semester when you came into class with your long-board and looked right at me. Maybe I started liking you at that moment but it didn’t occur to me.
You truly were my best friend but how oblivious you were during that time you didn’t realize that I was falling for you. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t help the situation. Maybe saying you were just a friend definitely did not help the situation.
That night you told me that you finally met someone at a party, I could have handled the situation differently but this kind of situation was all too familiar to me. I was hurt not specifically by you but by me for not telling you and missing my opportunity to tell you how I feel.
I fell for that smile that laughed at every one of my jokes. I fell for you during that time I first saw you cry. I fell for you when I heard you sing that first note of “Say Something” but apparently I was the only one stumbling and falling. Maybe it was me who jumped the gun and that led to misunderstandings.
You liked her but you always texted me. You said she made you nervous but you said you felt most comfortable around me. You didn’t talk to her, but with me, we stayed out late talking during the coldest degrees. One-sided love is a real thing and it hurts more when someone else is not actually in the relationship along with you. It felt as if I was the only one who actually cared about what we had.
I lost more than just a crush but a best friend that day as well. I thought that was only going to happen if I told you how I truly felt. I waited for you to text me back but I never did get a response. I was afraid of what you might say. So that’s how it ended. My pride was too strong to text you back.
I guess I just misunderstood what all these things meant to you and me. It’s not the first time that this has happened to me honestly but something about you has really left a mark on me and I want some closure.
I highly doubt you will read this or even know that I am writing this about you. I’d like to think that this letter is me finally ending things with you. If by chance you read this there’s just one thing I’d like. Let’s sit down and have a cup of coffee and catch up if you don’t really mind. Trust me, I promise this time there will be no feelings attached.