Quit telling yourself that you are not good enough because that is not true. I have told myself countless times that I am not good enough. Sure, I make mistakes daily and I am not always an easy person to deal with.
However, when you are looking for a boy you should NEVER settle.
If we are being completely honest I am the girl who has always played games, and I am not talking about board games. I am talking about the games where I lead boys on just to turn them down when they ask me out.
I know this might not be the best quality to have, but the truth is commitment scares me and this is the only way I know how to avoid it.
Most men do not stay around long when they find out that you are just playing games, and that you do not actually want to settle down with them.
However, there is this boy who is not like the others because he stuck with me through all of the "games". It does not matter how far I try to push him away he is always right there with me.
Since we are being honest, there never has been a man that has kept my attention for very long. Except for this one that I met four years ago in high school. When I say he is like no other he truly is and he actually understands me sometimes more than I understand myself.
I have stood him up on dates, led him on and I have left him on read countless times. Despite all the games I have played with him he is so persistent. I do not know any other man who would keep trying even after all the games I play. In fact, he is the only one who did not give up on me almost immediately.
It does not matter what time it is or what he is doing he would drop anything just to see me.
Like the time he was on his way to the baseball game and he turned around and went home just so he could see me. There have been countless nights that I have called him, and he has always been there with open arms.
One Sunday morning I was on the way to church and I did not want to go alone, so I called him up and even though he worked all night he still agreed to come with no hesitation. Even when he was hours away for his internship he was always a call away.
More than anything this is the boy who would do anything to see me happy. When I was in a toxic relationship he gave me the best advice. He did not tell me to break up with my ex because he wanted to date me, but it was all for selfless reasons like the most important being my happiness. Even though he wants nothing more than to date me he would give all that up if it meant that I was happy.
Since I am being completely transparent here if you could not already tell I am not the easiest to deal with. I know that I can be a handful, and maybe the same is true for you. However, just because I can be a little much does not mean that I should find someone who just tolerates me or just puts up with me.
Regardless of the kind of girl you are you deserve more and quit telling yourself that he is good enough when you know deep down it is not really enough.
I have always been a free spirit and it is hard for most boys to understand that. I have tried changing for boys and settling down so that I could have a relationship with them.
However, this boy understands who I am and he still loves me for me.
At the end of the day, you cannot change who you truly are because the truth always has a way of coming out. Sure, you could try settling for good enough, but your boy is out there somewhere and when you find him no one else will ever compare. I promise that boy will always be better than just good enough.