We all have that one relationship that stops us in our tracks. It drags us backwards a million times. Every time you think you're about to make it out, you're suddenly sucked back in because there's this feeling of emptiness every time you leave. It feels like your normality is being pulled away from you, and you run back to the one thing that gives you comfort. But baby, it's pulling you down and you know it.
I'll tell you what's happening. You're doing exactly, and I mean exactly, what I did. I, too, was stuck in a relationship where I was drowning in quicksand every day. I knew it wouldn't last, no matter how many times I tried to convince myself that it would, that I was staying because it could work. But trust me, you can only convince yourself of that so many times. I know that you also feel like you can't be the one to leave. You feel like you aren't strong enough. Even though you may not be exactly happy in his arms, but you feel a sense of comfort because it's normal. You're settling, and you know it.
You're made for so much more than this. You deserve so much more than this, and you know it.
Now, since I've been in your position, I'm not going to lie to you. It's going to be really hard. But when the time comes to leave, you're going to be so focused on yourself. You'll get to do things for yourself that you feel like you can't do right now because you are so consumed in a relationship that is not good for you.
The fact is, you're not in a relationship that is not helping you move forward as a person. You might be an incredible girlfriend and more, but you're not with someone who treats you like you are, and you deserve more than that. You know that you do, or maybe you don't know that, but I am telling you right now that you deserve so much more than what you have now. You know this relationship isn't going to last. You're probably telling yourself that it'll just run its course and it'll end naturally, but is that really making you better? No. Getting out of this relationship, however, will make you better.
You'll get to have girls nights and dance with strangers and learn who you are. You'll get to travel more because there's nothing holding you back. You'll have so much potential to make a difference. You will be so wholesome and full of life, and you'll have so much fire in your heart. You won't hate love, you'll know that it'll come when it's supposed to. You won't need another half, because you'll already be whole.