I'm in that phase right now where I'm busy enough that I don't need a boyfriend, but tend to have points that I desire one.
I mean, having a boyfriend wouldn't be a bad thing at the moment, but I tend to be weird about my feelings at times - possibly because I have never had a real father figure in my life - only my big brother who I think is a hopeless romantic. I love listening to him sometimes and how old-fashioned he is, I don't know if my mom taught us that or that's just the way we are. At times I consider myself to be old-fashioned and these days, that's tough to be because of the amount of one night stands people have is mind-blowing.
I don't know if that's all they are in it for or if that's all they need. I don't know about you, but I want someone to love me back just as much as I love them. I want my future guy to be my best friend first. Someone I can talk to and constantly be having that laughing stomach pain with. I want you to constantly be complimenting me on everything about me, not just the outside, but my personality, and everything that makes me, me. I want you to know that much about me. I want you to listen to me complain all the time and feel sorry for me, but then 10 minutes later agree with me that I'm overthinking and overreacting, and to stop it and be thankful.
I want to be able to always trust you, even though earning my trust will be difficult because I do have trust issues. That's just because of all the crappy people in this world mostly guys. I don't want you to be in the category of "Feek-Boi" EVER. I want to only have eyes for me. I want us to have the same interests and be like one another but yet so different that we can teach each other new things. I want you to always have respect for me and appreciate all I will do for you. I want to be able to feel safe when I'm with you and know that you will protect me no matter what, and if you can't, I got us both!
I want to be able to look up to you and be inspired by all you have achieved or plan on achieving. I want you to truly love me and be passionate towards me and in all things about us. I want to know that I can depend on you no matter how hard it gets. Depending on you is a really big deal to me, because when life is hard and I'm crying or need another opinion, or anything, I want you to be there for me when others can't be. Actually, I want you to be there first and make sure of it because you care that much. I want to be able to lay my head on your shoulder while having you tell me that everything is going to be okay. I want us to not only share our own dreams and goals, but create ones for the both of us together.
Wow, I may want a lot, but doesn't everyone? I'm not ashamed of it at all. All that I want and more is what I think I deserve and so do you. All women deserve the best and a man that will treat them right because you know, most of the time, we treat you like gold.
To my future guy, I don't know when I will meet you, or how. But, I'm not going to look for you. I'm just going to let it happen, I think. Who knows? I'm just going with the flow at the moment.
But I can't wait to meet you.