By the time I write this, you probably realized that I had to let you go.
It was one of the hardest decisions I had to make, but when it came down to it and thinking about what is best for me, it was better off without you. You may be asking yourself why I let you go. After thinking about it, there are several.
The biggest one is that you would just not accept me being happy with someone else. From the beginning of our friendship, I just had this feeling that our friendship was not just a "friendship" and that you wanted an "us."
I never once questioned about it and thought that it was just a myth. After I got into a relationship in 2016, that is when I knew that my "myth" was true. There were times before I got into a relationship that you have tried countless times to let me give you a chance but I just could not. I only saw you nothing more than just a friend.
But it did not end up like that. Instead, it ended up with you pouring your heart out to me about how you feel about me. For the longest time, I felt so bad about myself because of what you would say to me.
There was nothing that I could do or say to make you feel better. At that time, I had to realize that the relationship I was in was not worth losing and that to continue to grow my happiness, I had to let something go and that was you.
I should be sorry but in all honesty, I am not because you tried to bring negativity into my life. You tried to get me to leave the one person I care about the most in order for you to feel better about yourself and not be upset.
That is not how it works. You also have tried several times to break my relationship up when I would come to you for advice. It seemed like it was the right opportunity for you to brainwash me and tell me that you would "treat me better" but would a "friend" ever try to do that? I did not think so.
You have tried asking me out several times within my relationship, even when I have told you I was in one. I am one of those people who hardly ever get upset but that is something you do not do, especially if I have told you the same thing countless times. I just cannot understand why you would get into all the trouble when you know the results of it.
For the last couple of days, it was hard for me to come down to this, but I am glad that I did. This will give you an opportunity to realize that you lost a really good friend. I was always there for you and would never ever do anything like. I was there to give you advice when you needed it, to make you smile, and to help you in any way possible.
I guess you did not see me like that. Instead, you saw me as another "potential girlfriend." After seeing who you really are, I can guarantee you that it will not ever happen.
I am done with you and everyone else who thinks of me like that. I have a bright future ahead of me with some amazing people in my life supporting me every step of the way. So whether or not you are in my life, it does not matter to me because I do not need you in it anyway.
All I can do is wish you the best of luck an hope that you learn something from this. best regards to you and to your future.
Sincerely,
Your Ex-Friend