Someone asked me what I wanted in a future husband and I told them "you know what, I don't really know."
I thought it was strange because I have spent a majority of my life praying for a man and I don't even know what I want him to be like.
Obviously, I want him to be patient. Especially on the days where I want to eat everything, but nothing sounds good enough.
I want him to be kind. Particularly in the times where I can't stop crying and I don't even know how I started crying. Definitely in the times where I don't want to take a picture because I don't feel like I look good enough.
I want him to be understanding. Mostly during the times, I can't get out of bed in the morning because my mind is lying to me and especially when I feel like nothing I do for him is good enough so I have to keep trying to fix everything I have done.
I want him to be gracious. During those times I come home from work and need to cry because a student was rude or a coworker didn't listen to me.
I want him to be funny. Especially at every family dinner when sarcasm is our language, I want him to be able to keep up with the humor and be able to keep everyone laughing too.
I want him to be accepting in a world where acceptance is no longer the norm.
I want him to be fatherly to the children I can only hope he has prayed for as much as I have.
I want him to be forgiving in the times I mess up or all the times I start arguments just because I feel like I have to.
I want him to mess up. When life gets rough, I want him to be okay with the mistakes I make because he knows that he makes just as many mistakes as I do.
I want him to want to argue about the things that matter and help me move on from the things that aren't as important.
In the world we live in love is something so special that very few people truly get to experience.
We get caught up in the who's who and the what's what that we forget the things that truly matter. The things that truly make a person who they are. The intricate pieces of a person's personality that make them so special in this world.
So, now I challenge each of you, as you pray for your future spouse, ask yourself what it is you truly want in a lifelong partner.