I want to accomplish important things in my life. Important things that take time. Important things that can’t be fulfilled within state lines.
I believe that I am powerful, and I will not be sorry for that. I won’t be sorry for choosing my life and my career over a guy. I am only 19. I still have a life to live.
My future is exactly that, mine. I get that you have to take more things in to account for than just what is on the surface, but after it all, none of that matters. “If there is a will, there is a way.”
Don’t get me wrong, I loved him, and I loved him hard. And choosing to be away from him was one of the hardest decisions I’ve had to face. But after I looked at the facts and after it was broke down, this is my life and I have to do what is best for me.
We’re faced with many difficult decisions in life. And having to think about how those decisions affect other people can make them even more difficult. There is nothing wrong with choosing yourself and choosing what is best for your future.
Choosing college can be very stressful. There are many factors to consider like their curriculum, the expenses, distance from home, family and many more. But the main factor that matters is what is best for your future and your career. After all, that’s the whole reason we go to college, to begin building our career and our future. And I won’t allow myself to be shamed for choosing the best college for my career.
I couldn’t allow myself to throw away my hopes and dreams for his hopes and dreams. And I’m not sorry for that, but that doesn’t mean I don’t want him to chase his dreams and get what he wants out of life. Just like me, he has the rest of his life ahead of him and he can do whatever he wants with it because it is his life.
I know he hates me and I know he hates what I did to him, but I hope one day he's able to see why I did what I did and that I had to.