As a young woman, I always prayed for the right person to walk into my life at the right time. Every day since I started my freshman year in college I questioned the people that God placed in my life when he did. He places the right people in your life at the right time for so many reasons and he wants you to realize it.
God has a funny way of showing us stuff. He works miracles in our lives every day.
I woke up one day in September 2019 because a voice from God told me too. He kept telling me, "It is time to wake up, Kaylah, to realize why I put you here, who I put in your life, and why exactly I did it." I woke up so fast to realize who I really am. I always struggled with loving myself before I loved others but then I finally put myself first for once. It felt incredibly weird because that's not who I am.
If you know me I put others before my own happiness. I love everyone who walks into my life regardless of the pain they have caused me. I forgive people but I never forget. I believe in treating others the way you want to be treated. I was going through a dark season in my life. My friends and family always had my back. They checked on me every day. My sorority sisters lifted me up after I told them what I was going through.
After I woke up at a church conference in September called Fearless, I decided to go get a tattoo of the theme "embrace it."
I went to Villa Rica Ink where I have been going for years. One of your close friends tattooed me that day. I remember you talking to me the entire time while I was getting tattooed. My best friend, Ashlyn, was there too. You made me laugh every time you spoke. You put a smile on my face. We reconnected because it had been so long since we had last seen each other and that was my sophomore year in high school.
You added me on Snapchat and we reconnected so quickly. It was so easy flowing with you and still is. We Snapchatted and texted every day. You would FaceTime me when you were at work. I was so nervous to first hangout with you because I was not sure where we would go. I was scared to be hurt again. I was scared it was going to end so soon. Instead, I friend-zoned you at first then I regretted it.
My brother and parents told me to go for it: "Preston has shown you he wants you. Do not be scared. Just go for it." Then we hung out for the first time a couple of days after. You opened the door for me like a true gentleman should do. You picked me up. You had me to listen to your favorite music. We went on a "double date" with your best friend since grade school. It made me feel so great that you tried so hard for me.
I fell for you hard and am still falling every day. You are my saving grace. You are my peace.
Preston, you are the person I deserved all along. You are the person I want to spend my life with. You are such a blessing in my life. It is crazy to me how God does things. In all of my mess, I found you when I went looking for me. I love you and always will.
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