I'm a perfectionist. I want everything a certain way and if it's not, it scares me, makes me uncomfortable and I want to change it.
I have this really awful habit of feeling this way towards everything, including my relationships, so when they aren't perfect, I think I have to fix it so that it is.
I've learned the hard way to stop expecting perfection all the time, but that doesn't mean I don't still struggle with it.
So, to the girls out there that want their relationships perfect like I did, I have a few things to tell you:
You're going to argue with him. The first argument is brutal, no matter how big or small, but it's going to happen.
One of you is going to get jealous from time to time. You may not always say it, but it's bound to happen.
Communicating everything is the best and sometimes only thing you can do, and it still may not fix everything.
A relationship is 50/50. You can't run the relationship yourself (as badly as you may want to sometimes).
No one is perfect, not him, not you. Two imperfect people are bound to have an imperfect relationship, and that's okay.
And lastly, you're doing the best you can. I know how hard it can be to want a perfect relationship and not be able to have it all the time, but it's not supposed to be that way. Keep yourself happy, love how you would want to be loved and the rest will fall into place.
It's okay to not be perfect, have the perfect relationship, or the perfect boyfriend. The important part is, you're with someone who makes you happy. If you're happy, you're as close to perfect as you ever need to be.