To The Boy I Thought I Would Spend Forever With, I've Found A New Forever

To The Boy I Thought I Would Spend Forever With, I've Found A New Forever

Hey, I know I told you this wouldn't happen. But it did, and I'm sorry it's going to hurt you, but I can't keep it a secret anymore.

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Hey, I know I told you this wouldn't happen. But it did, and I'm sorry it's going to hurt you, but I can't keep it a secret anymore.

I've found someone new, and he is incredible. We don't have the type of relationship you and I had. It's so completely different. You and I dated for marriage (well, we see how that turned out). He and I aren't ready for a serious commitment, and it's so refreshing. It is so refreshing to have a fun and open relationship with an amazing guy—a guy who doesn't belittle me and doesn't put me down every time I do something wrong, a guy I can have fun with and talk about anything with.

I'll admit, sometimes it's hard. It's hard to be with someone new. Because, after all, you and I dated for three years, and it's hard to adapt to life without the person you shared your life with for three years.

I trusted him right off the bat, isn't that funny? How I couldn't trust you for the three years we dated but I knew this guy for not even a week and I just knew I could trust him?

I'm not comparing you to him because it's unfair to both of you. Because you are both two completely different people. But while I've been with him, I've just been thinking about how crazy different everything is.

I love seeing him. Whether it's just in our class and he sends me texts to try and make me laugh, or for two seconds in the commons, or for an entire night—I just always have so much fun with him. He makes me laugh so much differently. I mean, he heard my real laugh like five days after I met him. Not just my little giggle I give because you and I both know I laugh at everything, but he heard my loud and obnoxiously embarrassing cackle. (And he thought it was cute!)

We don't hold hands when we walk together. We don't talk all the time when we are with each other. We don't text constantly throughout the day. We don't go out to parties together on the weekends.

We share two completely different lives but we do it together, still, somehow.

I'm not dating him for marriage, but I sure am falling for him. Not like, falling in love type of falling. But just like, "Wow, this boy is incredible and shows me that every day."

I am sorry. I'm sorry you weren't my soulmate and that you aren't the person I'm going to end up with. It actually breaks my heart some days when I realize I won't be growing old with you. But I couldn't fathom being with someone that didn't love me for who I am. Even when I changed, you were still supposed to love me and you couldn't do that. I'm sorry I couldn't trust you. I'm sorry you thought I was crazy and annoying. But I found this guy, on a random Tuesday in my last class of the day, because he complimented my Filas, and I am so incredibly blessed that I did. Because, even though it's not for a future, he's giving me the best damn semester this year.

I'm happy. And I want you to be happy too. But it's going to have to be without each other.

Thank you for some of the best three years of my life, but I found someone new, and he's freaking amazing.

kileyhill
kileyhill

Literally, so hot RN

Literally, so hot RN

When You Feel Like Nobody Ever Likes You Back

Please don't let it break you.

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It appears that I reached many people when I described how it felt to be single for 18 years (and update: it's almost 20 years now), but perhaps I can reach even more people when I explain the feeling when it seems like nobody *ever* likes you back. It's tough and it sucks. Maybe people feel this way about you. Or maybe you're in the exact same position that I am. Whatever end you're on, I'd imagine that you could relate or understand in some sort of way.

It's always fun to like someone new. We all love to fantasize about this new person, tell our friends (or enjoy the sneaky satisfaction of remaining cryptic about it), give him the Instagram follow (but you can't be the first to like his pictures so you wait to be the 23rd), get his phone number (and try *extra* hard not to text it too often), and gaze at a fresh face in class or at our activities.

We get that rush of happiness when he likes our Instagram pictures or when he answers our texts or when he views our Snapchat story or when he makes any type of effort to speak to us.

It's all fun and games. Until reality creeps in and so do our doubts and realizations that he probably doesn't like us back.

And I understand that feeling. We get left on open or read with no follow-up and freeze in our tracks. We see him flirting with someone else and our stomachs churn. And, worst of all, we find out he is in a relationship with someone else and we can feel our hearts physically sink. We begin doubting and hating ourselves and questioning our own intrinsic worth.

In the prolonged time I've been single, I've felt these feelings over and over and over again. And sometimes people can undermine the pain because it isn't a real break-up from an established boyfriend. But we still feel the breaking of our hearts and like our feelings are valid.

It's safe to say I've had to take many Ls in the relationship department, and I continue to take Ls, so I can (probably) relate to what you're feeling.

I've been explicitly told, "I don't like you back." I've tried to break down the touch barrier, but it would build itself back up stronger than ever. I've felt led on only to discover that the person was seeing someone else all along. Even today as a (nearly) 20-year-old, my doubts set in, my flirting efforts are either too strong or not strong enough, and I receive telltale signs that my fantasies will stay fantasies.

And you probably have been in similar situations or perhaps taken different Ls. And you feel ugly. And you feel unlovable. And it sucks.

But you're not. Please don't let it break you.

If you wouldn't place your self-esteem in the hands of the stranger at the bus stop, you shouldn't place your self-esteem in the hands of any one guy. Both the stranger and your love interest are individuals and don't deserve that kind of power. Some situations are not meant to be and that doesn't make you any less beautiful or amazing of a person. Everybody will only have one truly happy ending regardless of who they are. So muster up the strength to move on, and realize that perhaps the happiest endings require the most loss and heartbreak to get there.

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14 Song Lyrics That Say 'I Miss You' Just As Good As Blink 182

Because sometimes you want to say more than just "I miss you."

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Music can speak incredible volumes that regular words can't reach. I use music all the time to describe how I'm feeling or what I'm going through. I use it most in my relationships, especially with my boyfriend. As a musician, him and I are always finding songs that describe how we feel for each other and the emotions we experience.

Saying "I miss you", sometimes can feel, almost dissipated. But song lyrics can *really* tell someone how much you actually miss them. These are 11 song lyrics that are perfect to tell that special someone you miss them.

1. "Wish You Were Here" by Avril Lavigne

"You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here"

2. "Far Away" by Nickleback

"That I love you I have loved you all along and I miss you
Been far away for far too long"

3. "Hey There, Delilah" by Plain White T's

"Hey there, Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice, it's my disguise
I'm by your side"





4. "I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing" by Aerosmith

"Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't want to miss a thing"


5. "Home" by Michael Buble or Blake Shelton

"Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just want to go home
Oh I miss you, you know"



6. "Faithfully" by Journey

"Two strangers learn
To fall in love again
I get the joy
Of rediscovering you
Oh girl, you stand by me
I'm forever yours
Faithfully"





7. "Need You Now" by Lady Antebellum

"It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now"

8. "Making Memories Of Us" by Keith Urban

"I'm gonna be here for you from now on
This you know somehow
You've been stretched to the limits but it's alright now
And I'm gonna make you a promise
If there's life after this
I'm gonna be there to meet you with a warm, wet kiss"




9. "I'm Already There" by Lonestar

"Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know that I'll be in your dreams tonight"

10. "Talking to the Moon" by Bruno Mars

"At night when the stars
Light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the moon
Tryin' to get to you
In hopes you're on
The other side
Talking to me too"






11. "All I Want" by Kodaline

"All I want is nothing more
To hear you knocking at my door
'Cause if I could see your face once more
I could die as a happy man I'm sure"


12.  "The Few Things" by JP Saxe

"You're one of the few things that I'm sure of
You're one of the few things that I know already
I could build my world of
One of the few things that I'm sure of"


13. "Kiss Me Thru The Phone" by Soulja Boy

"And that's the issue, girl you know I miss you
I just wanna kiss you
But I can't right now
So baby kiss me thru the phone (kiss me thru the phone)"


14.  "Falling for You" by The 1975

"I'll take it one day at a time
Soon you will be mine, oh, but I want you now (I want you now)
When the smoke is in your eyes, you look so alive
Do you fancy sitting down with me maybe
'Cause you're all I need"




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